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It all started in April when I did a silly thing at work and I have not been the same way. Conatsnly worrying over the smallest smallest things. I have always been a worrier but never this bad. Then I sort of pushed it to the side and got on with life.

Then in June I had the start of operations that could turn my life around completely. Yes this may be over dramtic but it is going to make me this happier more confident person I have always wanted to be. 99% of people who I have spoken to says I am doing the right thing and putting myself first and a lot of people say they are proud of me which makes me feel good.
After the operation I was in pain yeah it was to be expected and I just took the pain killers and tried to get on with everything. Went back to the hospital for check ups constanly for 4 weeks.
The 3rd week was horrible I broke down crying in the waiting room and I was pouring my heart out to a nurse for a good hour saying how horrible I felt and how I didnt want to go on with it anymore and I serious doubts about it all but I knew it was for the best so I didnt say anything to my consultant about my doubts. I told him how I felt and he checked and said everything was ok and gave me another week off work to make sure I was ok.

I went back to work and everything was ok, one or two days of a month I would just wake up in pain and ring work and explain that I felt horrible and was taking the day off work. I have spoken to work about it and they seem fine about it.

Then I went into work feeling like total crap I was on my period and I had a headache from hell I took some pain killers and went to work hoping I would get though the day. I drove to work with pains in my stomach as a drove walk to work explained to my manger that day that I was feeling rough. Went upstairs and broke down from all the pain I was in. Seriously getting fed up with it at this stage. Like it feels like I am taking 2 steps back not foreard every time I go home from work. Cause I want to feel normal and ok but I just cannot do it and make myself with it.

:)

I'm 18 :) Wooohoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
What is everyone up to this Halloween tell me what you are up to! xx

P.S - My A&F jumper is deffo worth £60.00 it's very soft and SUPER WARM great for the winter England is going to have!

The problem with LJ:

We all think we are so close, but really, we know nothing about each other. So I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me. Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about.

Ask away. Then post this in your LJ and find out what people don't know about you! x
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I have placement week to look forward to. :)
I cannot wait. I am allowed to plan and carry out an activity with the children.
I've decied that we are going to make Rainbow Fish with sparkly bits and bright coloured paper.
I'm working with 5 - 6 years old and I think its my favourite age so far.
I go a B in my first eassy that I done. I was so pleased with myself. I thought I failed it completely.

I went to town with two of my favourite girls and I brought lots of lovely things. I have almost saved up £200 to start my driving lessons off with! :)

I hope that I am allowed to send off for my provisnal driving leisnce tomorrow. :)

x

All over the world.

You see the big big man in red.
With is red hat on his head.
His raideer pulling his Christmas sledge.
See him in the sky on a lovely Christmas night.
Spreading Christmas joy all over the world.

He's got
big black boots.
A big white beard
And don't forget his eyes that sparkle.
All over the world, you see the big big man in red.

With is red hat on his head.
His raideer pulling his Christmas sledge.
See him in the sky on a lovely Christmas night.
Spreading Christmas joy all over the world.

I adore singing it with little children.
One of the children that I was with in my last placmenet came and said Happy Christmas to me today whlist I was running around at work.
It made me feel all warm inside and made me smile. :)

x

45 questions about 2007 :]

1-Did you kiss anyone?
Yes :]

2-Did you date anyone?
Well not really. It was complicated.

3-Are you going to kiss someone when the ball drops?
No.

4-Did you lose any friends?
Yes but it was for the best.

5-Did you gain any friends?
Yessss :]

6-Did you do something new?
Yesss :]

7-Did anyone important to you die?
No.

8-Did you change?
Yes so much.

9-Are you happy with the year over all?
Yes this year has been one of the best that I have ever had. So much has changed for the better and I love it..

10-Whats the best thing that happen to you?
Getting closer to Chloe again and spending loads of time with her in the summer.

11-Did you fall in or out of love?
Nope.

12-Are you happy the years almost over?
Yes in a away.

13-Are you going to change something about yourself next year?
Yes.

14-Do you think 2008 will be a better year then 2007?
I hope so. This year has been amazing though.

15-Did you lose your virginity in 2007?
I am not saying that over the internet.

16-How many things did you screw up in 2007?
Loads of things.

17-Did you go to an amusement park?
Thorpe Park. (Y)

18-Did you go to a concert?
Loaded Dice twice!!

19-Did you go to any parties?
Yesss

20-Did you go on a summer vacation?
No :(

21-Did you lie to your parents?
Hahahahah this is a crap question and yes I did.

22-Did you get into a fight?
Yes and sometimes I don't think it was worth it.

23-Did you leave the country?
Nope.

24-Did you have a good birthday?
Yess :)

25-Did anyone in your family get married?
Nope.

26-Do you think you grew?
No. I have shurk.

27-Did you dye your hair?
Yes, light brown but I ended up hating it so I went back to blonde.

28-Who do you think you were on the phone with the most?
Ummmmmm I dont have a clue.
Most probs Chloe or Louise.

29-Did anyone sing to you?
Nopes.

30-Did you sing to anyone?
Nopes

31-Did anyone tell you they loved you?
Yeah.

32-Did you ever go to the hospital?
Yes.

33-What did you drink and eat the most?
Lots of thingsss

34-Did you change your top at least 8 times?
My top as in clothes lots and lots.

35-Did you change your profile over 10 times?
Yeah I get bored easily.

36-Did you change your default atleast 20 times?
Pfff effort.

37-Did you get a tattoo?
Nopes.

38-Did you vote?
Not old enough.

39-Are you going to make a new years resolution?
Uhhh and I will stick to it.

40-Did you stick to your new years resolution from last year?
I forgot what mine was.

41. Think you'll date someone in 2008?
Maybe we will see how things go.

42. where will you be when the ball drops?
What is with this question ?!

43. Do you think you will make new friends in 2008?
Yep.

44. Are you hoping to meet someone special in 2008?
Hope so.

45. How do you feel, another year has passed you by?
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This weekend was wasnt the best I have had for ages.
But the negatives can sometimes turn into postive things if you don't think the bad in other people.
I can't wait till next weekend as it is my frist weekend off. I do enjoy going to work but its nice to get away from the crazyness that is Tesco esspiecally running up to Xmas.
I will miss seeing Andrew though he makes me smile and giggle lots and lots :]

I am hoping to be able to enjoy my Friday night with my best friend and then spend some quaility time with my Mum on Saturday and then my Dad on Sunday.
He's taking me shopping to the big shopping centre near me.
I may treat myself to some lovely hair extentions I am sick of having short hair. :/ And a new top 'cause its Xmas and I have lots of nights to look forward to.

x

Quizzzz :)

1. Introduce yourself?
Heya I am Georgia and I am quite a friendly person.

2. It's Thursday at noon, where are you usually?
In my play lesson :)

3. Who are the last four people to send you a text message?
Andrew, Louise, Louise + Andrew/

4. What brand of shampoo is in your shower right now?
Ummm Idk.

5. Honestly, if you could have ANYONE in the world, who would it be?
Andrew.

6. What are you listening to right now?
Musiccc.

7. Do you watch MTV anymore?
Yes.

11. How do you feel about your hair?
Ewww.

12. What time do you wake up for school?
Dephens.

13. What movie is in your DVD player?
Skins I think.

14. Last two numbers in your phone number?
90

16. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
Wall side.

17. Do you like roller coasters?
Yessssssssssssssss :)

21. Whens the next time you'll kiss someone of the opposite sex?
Not soon. :(

22. What do your parents look like?
Like me. I look more like my Daddy though, thank gd.

26. What kind of cologne/perfume do you wear?
Flowery sencets, at the momenet its Paul Smit Extreme

28. What are your plans for Friday?
Movieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee with Chloe :) YEAHHHHH!

29. What is the dumbest thing you have ever done with your cellphone?
Dropped it in Staines shopping centre.

35. What do you usually order at Taco Bell?
-

36. Have you ever sat all the way through Gone With the Wind?
No

37. When was the last time you were up all night?
Ohhh agesss ago.

39. Where is your favorite place?
In this order.
Carly's uni house, Chloe's house, Kingston with friends, sitting on the floor with Andrew, and in the bath :)

40. Do you ever think about the price of gasoline?
Eh?

41. Do you sleep with a fan on?
When it is stupidly hot.

42. What is the best thing about winter?
Xmas = GITTERLY DRESSES!

43. How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
A lot. More than I should I think.

44. How many states have you been to where all you saw was the airport?
-

45. Are you currently planning a trip?
Na.

48. Have you ever googled your name and found somebody?
Yes.

49. Who's your number one on your top friends?
Chloe.

52. Why are they number one?
'Cause she is simply amazing, she means everything to me and I cannot ever imiange my life without her.

51. What makes you feel like you are young again?
Spice Girls, Steps and gitterly jeans.

52. Do you ever type "kik" instead of "lol"?
Hahaha yes.

53. Do you know how to play chess?
Yes :)

54. What's on your mind right now?
What do you think ? ;)

55. Do you want to take something back that happened in the last week?
Not myself.
Her and she needs to sort herself out.
Majourllly.
xx

Something's happening....

I seem to be falling out of love quicker and quicker these days.
Everyone seems to have somebody but I don't.
I sometimes question if theres something wrong with who I am.
I give up hoping to have that speical someone sometimes.
'Cause for some girls it seems far to easy for them.
I just would love a guy to look at me in that certain way and be kind and sweet to me and not be horrible and upset me a few minuites later.

xx

Nov. 3rd, 2007

When you're home alone, do you still close the door when you shower?
Yes. I hate having the door open when I am in the shower.

Has a friendship ended recently that you wish hadn't?
Nopes.

Do you like your music loud or at a resonable level?
Very loud.

Would you rather talk on the phone or in person?
I like both but I do perfer in person its nice.

If you had one whole day to yourself, what would you do?
Have a nicee warm bath, go shopping then lay on the sofa and wacth all of Skins :)

Can you watch scary movies alone?
Na, I get scared so easily.

Is anything bothering you?
Not really.

Would you rather stay home all day, or be out and about?
Out and about :)

What's one of your worst memories?
Let's not talk about it.

Do you like to keep the peace or be confrontational?
Keep the peace but it always makes me upset for ages.

Are you more likely to be with a large group of people or a few close ones?
Few close friends.

What are your plans for November?
College, Work, Shopping, Weekend off work, Christmas Shopping :)

Are you listening to music right now?
Nopes.

What's your ideal profession?
Working with little children of all ages in a pirmay school.

Cutest moment this week?
Lots and lots :)
Seeing Chloe was pretty cute.

What are you doing this weekend?
Working and tidying up my room.

What is one fear that you can't seem to overcome?
I don't have any anymore. :)

Are you in a good mood?
Very good mood.

Is there anyone you regret ever meeting?
Yes come to think of it.

On the opposite sex, where do you like them to have piercings?
I don't mind at long as they don't have every single percing that I can think of.

Would you rather have roommates or live alone?
Roommates it looks like so much fun :)

Do you like to drive?
Planning to start very soon :)

What is your favourite thing to wear?
Topshop jeans :)

If you found out that you were going to be a parent, what would you do?
Be well happy :) Then think what the fuck?

Are you talking to anyone while doing this?
Na.

When were you the saddest in your whole life?
I don't actually know. This time last year for a few months was pretty crap tbh with you.

Ever had ugly thoughts about someone you love?
?

Have you ever made someone so mad that they broke something?
No.

You have 3 months left to live, what do you do?
Do everything I ever wanted to do and enjoy life to the full.

You're having a bad day, what's one thing that can make your day better?
Talking to Chloe or seeing her.

What makes you mad?
I have a very high patheint level now but its good so I don't go crazy at the little kids all the time.

You wake up in an unfamiliar place; what is your first reaction?
How did I end up here and who is with me.

Is there anything that you should be doing right now?
Getting ready for work and eating lunch.

What is your favourite breakfast?
Um...

Your phone rings at 4am; who do you expect it to be?
Someone lovely. I am thinking Louise for some reason.

Do you think you're approachable?
Idk.

Do you hate anyone?
Lets not go there.

Is anyone interested in you right now?
Na.

Do you go to school?
College

What's your worst habit?
I don't know. I don't tend to stay in once place at one time though. Thats quite bad. I have farr to much engery I think.

Thank you for the birthday wishes :)

xxx